I cannot accurately encompass the events of the last year, so I will summarize, briefly:
Finished my Senior Thesis, poured all of my energy into a project that paid off tenfold.
Graduated from College.
Commissioned as a United States Army Officer.
Took some time off after school to rediscover myself.
Ended up spending the summer with my parents.
Bought a motorcycle.
Attempted a relationship.
Got my orders and moved to Alabama for flight school.
Got stuck on Funeral Detachment for 6 months waiting for a medical waiver.
Got my medical waiver cleared for Asthma exacerbated by the environmental conditions of Alabama.
Finally got my life back together.
Officially started Flight School, is totally worth the wait.
Honestly, it’s pretty tough for me to gauge this last year. Everything has been happening at warp speed and I feel like I’m barely coming to terms with what has happened. I think spending more time on this blog will help me to effectively characterize the constantly changing events I encounter. I feel alive again, the Summer is beginning and I have fought my way through an inordinate number of setbacks to achieve what I would like to refer to is “happiness” I need to motivate myself to succeed and the partial anonymity of the online environment couched in the permanence of modern social media and internet infamy seems like as good an environment as any. I just want to talk, and I don’t have anyone to talk to so the internet seems like a good enough place to start.
Saturday we had an FTX (field training excercise) basically get all kitted up and tromp around the woods playing soldier with all the other soldiers. Kind of stupid.
After that I went for a 30 mile bike ride
Sunday I wasn’t feeling so good so I just went for a 3 mile run to try and get the endorphines flowing, ended up feeling worse.
Woke up even more sick Monday morning, e-mailed Master Sergeant Bolden that I would miss PT, and updated him on my week’s workouts.
MSG Bolden says I’m over training and that’s why I got sick. I don’t know but I took yesterday off and didn’t do anything, maybe some pushups and core exercises, but not much, and it was the worst day I’ve had for a while. I’m actually a little worried that the only thing keeping me going is the endorphine high I get from working out, because otherwise I feel depressed, extremely depressed. Need to stop ignoring problems hoping they will go away on their own.
Today I ran 3 miles. Did 20 minutes of Pushups and Situps in consecutive increments. Lifted weights, can only do Squats and Bench with my stupid dislocated finger. Then I followed it all with an hour of Zumba for extra cardio and fun, with girls, who are pretty, and make me happy :) Finished off the day with two hours of dance rehearsal and two hours of a cappella rehearsal.
Sometimes you get knocked on your ass, and you just have to get back up and finish the race.
January was not a good month for me for a lot of reasons. I faced a lot of challenges that I never expected to face, and at the same time I learned a lot about myself. Some of those challenges have yet to run their course, and some of them taught me things about myself that I had never expected to learn. Some good, and some bad.
What I learned about life though, was not to give up. Ever. You may have gained weight you didn’t want, you may have lost something you once had, you may have said the wrong thing, you may have some regrets, you may have gotten into some serious trouble that you didn’t expect, but just because things look grim doesn’t mean it’s over, the challenge is just beginning, and I believe we are defined by the way that we handle our challenges in life. Grow, learn, get into trouble and overcome it. Take risks, reap rewards. I dare you.
Tomorrow I’m going to put in 20 miles on my bike. Suck it.
Oh that video is most definitely of me, there will be a lot more to come. It’s been a while since I let go and just did some real free form improv, so I will be doing a lot. I’ve also had a lot of personal issues come up recently in ways that I never planned for or expected, so I’m angry and confused, and a lot of what’s inside me says the best way to get it out is to express and dance so that’s what I’ll be doing.
New Camera is in, going to take some time tonight and record a little improvisation, so yeah, you can see me dance. It also has a slow motion 240 fps setting that while not high in quality, will be so bomb dot com when I get some clips of dancers performing technical manuevers.
So yeah, big things coming to you, my three whole followers!!! haha I kid you guys are awesome and in for something good
Just ordered this camera after a long decision making process. It’s no replacement for my DSLR baby, but it will replace my old 900 SD which broke in Yellowstone a few years ago.
The reason I’m buying this camera is mainly for the video capability. I tried out an HD camcorder last year but was disappointed and sent it back. I knew that I needed a new compact so I figured I would see if the technology had advanced enough that I could get one to serve both purposes. Fingers crossed because the reviews are good. I need a camera so I can record my new choreography for my Senior Recital. Six dances is going to take every ounce of talent I have in the books and I still might not be able to find enough time to get it all done. The end of May is going to come sooner than I want it to.
Anyways, I will be posting a lot of my videos online and linking them to this blog in the hopes that I will get some creative and constructive feedback that will help me in the process.
Ok, so now would be the ideal time to introduce myself. I don’t want to bore you (or me) with too many details so I will try to keep it brief.
I live in beautiful Oregon in the United States.
I am in my final year of school at Western Oregon University where I am majoring in dance and minoring in military science.
When I graduate I will recieve my commission as a second lieutenant in the United States Army. I will then go to Ft. Rucker, Alabama for officer basic and flight school. After that I will serve for no less than eight years on active duty, after that I don’t really know yet, I may decide to continue my military career or I may pursue a career as a civilian helicopter pilot with my training, or possibly continue my career as an artist in dance and music.
I have done some dance at the professional level with Rainbow Dance Theatre, and I have about 15 years of training under my belt in modern, ballet, jazz, hip-hop, tap, african, capoiera, and whatever else I get the opportunity to take. I have represented Western Oregon University at the American College Dance Festival for the last five years, last year and this year as a featured soloist. I am hoping to dance in Portland for at least a few months if not a full year after graduation before I leave for the Army. There are some great companies I would love the opportunity to work with before I become unavailable for a decade.
I’m a musician. I play the trumpet, the djembe, and I currently study voice. I am one of the founding members of 15 Miles West, Western Oregon’s only A Cappella music group. My mom is a piano teacher and my dad played trumpet so I grew up with music, and I’ve always loved it.
I shoot with a Canon Rebel XSi DSLR camera. I take a lot of pictures of dancers and landscapes. I wish I had more time for photography but I’m pretty busy, or maybe I’m just too lazy.
I love computers, my dad is a programmer and so I grew up around computers, built my first system when I was seven and have been tinkering away since then. I also like video games. A lot. And I spend way too much time on them.
I’m into fitness, though not always out of choice due to Army requirements. I hate running, and I’m not very good at it. It has a lot to do with the actually getting outside and running part of it. I do like to work out though, especially if I can build it into a regular routine.
I love to cook, especially bake, but I hate to do dishes, so I sometimes don’t cook because of the dishes I know I will have to do.
I’m a big reader. Sci-fi is where it’s at, although I’ve been known to enjoy some work from the genre of graphic novels.
Eh, I’m running out of steam. I had a fun workout a little bit ago and now I’m tired. Countdown workout from 15 with medicine ball. squats, pushups, v ups and frog kicks.
I should write something meaningful here _____________ but instead I’m going to bed.
Music Blog. A Cappella Blog. Djembe Blog. Singer/Songwriter Blog. Trumpet Blog. Hiking Blog. Camping Blog. Climbing Blog. Running Blog. Lifting Blog. Challenge Blog. Social Blog. Family Blog. Life Blog. Secret Blog. Public Blog.
And I never got around to making any of those blogs in the last however many years it has been. I had a blog once, when I was in high school. I had a few. Back before facebook, I remember reading all my friend’s blog posts over on blogger just to see what everyone was up to, and then spewing my teenage angst all over the interwebz in the days before myspace and facebook. The internet was a different place back then, hell the world was a different place back then. I felt the compulsive need to publish articles, to share my feelings or to mask them in foreign words. I usually sounded pretentious, full of myself and trapped in my own little selfish world. Let’s be honest, I still take myself way to seriously and think way too much about what’s going on in my life, but I miss that outlet that I once had. So this is now going to be that outlet. For now, I don’t really mind who reads this, if I post interesting things then all the better but I don’t want to post for an audience, I want to post so that I can give language to my thoughts and not just sit around at home all day wishing I could take action. This way I will have some method of accountability that I cannot simply hide on a bookshelf. Also it is time to finish writing my thesis and need something to distract me. I’m tired of playing video games, need the writing practice, and maybe, just maybe I will get up and go do some interesting things.